There's too much that I need to do and I am just ignoring it all, not the best way to solve a problem, but it's how I cope.
I pretend like it isn't there and just do things that make me happy.
In the end I screw myself over.
So today I asked a friend of mine to help me make a "game plan" and the first thing he asked me was: what is your morning mantra? I told him.
I know, I know. Morning mantra?! Wtf. But really it helps me get through the day, if I feel like I'm about to burst into tears or drop into the fetal position I find an empty bathroom, stand in front of the mirror and breathe, repeating my mantra over and over until I feel calm. It helps.
For me at least.
But my friend wasn't sure that my mantra was fitting for me, since losing my auntie in 2011 I have had the same mantra but since losing my brother last November I didn't know what to change it to.
I'm glad my friend pointed out that I have changed and my mantra wasn't hitting some of the points that I need to confront/help everyday.
So basically that is what I've been working on figuring out all day.
New mantra.
We talked about some other issues I need to address but honestly I don't want to face them just yet.
Okay. So in other news. It was Georgie's sixth birthday on Saturday:)
He is my fave living thing in the world so naturally I spoiled him to death and we played all day.
He is deff the sunshine in my world.
xx
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